some years ago........in the night......i went for a walk .....with my old buddy......cujo, the dog
at this time my heart was broken........and I was drowning in self pity.......tears have been my constant companions....
after a while i saw something black in the distance.......i went to get closer....
it was a dead male cat.......the small body smashed.......only his cute head was uninjured....
I knelt down beside the cat, stroking his head and my tears fell on his silken fur......and the voice in my head said to me.........."what would you do to make him alive again".......
what can i do..........how can i give the cat a tenth life.......
"the cat will live....but you´ll lose the love of your life....forever........he will not come back....."
that´s the trouble with these fucking voices.......quid pro quo.......
and i decided for the cat......in my thoughts....
i went away.......and when i turned around.......the dead body was gone.....
two days later my kitty got her babies.......and there he was......the black male cat.....
eight years last his tenth life......and he shared them with me......
but my big love.......i never saw again.....
my weird thoughts
Freitag, 7. Januar 2011
Sonntag, 26. Dezember 2010
kick my ass ;-)
i´m an idiot......a wailing and self-pitying idiot....
no one loves me.....no one cares about me......i´m soooo lonley ......these are my standard rates in times such as Christmas.....
ohh please......could someone kick my ass
it´s time to open my eyes......to look around.......
so many people support me, care about me, love me.......even if I sometimes behave like a little asshole
people from other parts of the world worry about me.......and i don´t even know them personnally......only through twitter
i´m a lucky person.......but i can´t see it sometimes......when my eyes are full of tears ...... tears of complacency......tears of self pity
it´s time again......to wake up......to say thank you
to my family........my ex-husband......my friends and colleagues......my twitterfriends......my costumers......and all the other people around me.....
thank´s for caring and supporting.......through you I feel important, competant, sexy, funny, beautiful .....and loved
and a big thank you to my daughter......she´s my spitting image......but still in many ways much wiser than i.......despite her youth.....
thank´s to all of you
and to you other whiners out there......stop crying......look around......and start to enjoy your lifes ;-)
no one loves me.....no one cares about me......i´m soooo lonley ......these are my standard rates in times such as Christmas.....
ohh please......could someone kick my ass
it´s time to open my eyes......to look around.......
so many people support me, care about me, love me.......even if I sometimes behave like a little asshole
people from other parts of the world worry about me.......and i don´t even know them personnally......only through twitter
i´m a lucky person.......but i can´t see it sometimes......when my eyes are full of tears ...... tears of complacency......tears of self pity
it´s time again......to wake up......to say thank you
to my family........my ex-husband......my friends and colleagues......my twitterfriends......my costumers......and all the other people around me.....
thank´s for caring and supporting.......through you I feel important, competant, sexy, funny, beautiful .....and loved
and a big thank you to my daughter......she´s my spitting image......but still in many ways much wiser than i.......despite her youth.....
thank´s to all of you
and to you other whiners out there......stop crying......look around......and start to enjoy your lifes ;-)
Dienstag, 21. Dezember 2010
Thanks to the Goddess of Light days are getting longer again
I love the night ....
love how the darkness surrounds me
love how the darkness surrounds me
everything is soft, unreal and free ....
I love the day ..... and the light .....
I enjoy the sunrise, the heat ....
everything is so clear, really, ruthless and honest
I enjoy the sunrise, the heat ....
everything is so clear, really, ruthless and honest
I love ..... these 24 hours life and experience
Samstag, 18. Dezember 2010
welcome to my head
i just try it........my english is bumpy ......my grammar is awful.......and my thoughts are scary....
but hey ...... doing by learning .....
so don´t be too strict with your judgement .....
but hey ...... doing by learning .....
so don´t be too strict with your judgement .....
twittershortstories
He was disgusting, offensive and intrusive....she just smiled and caressed her knife .....it was almost closing hour....
he always calls for help....that´s so annoying and boring....her own fault.....the walls of his dungeon aren´t thick enough...
eccentric phantasies had exhausted her....now she yearned for a boring, good natured guy.....
time heals all wounds .... what kind of crappy nonsense ...... his last thought... .. before he jumped.....
he left her behind.....speechless.....he has taken her money.....her car......her self respect....even her tongue....she would never be able to moan the whole day....
he always calls for help....that´s so annoying and boring....her own fault.....the walls of his dungeon aren´t thick enough...
eccentric phantasies had exhausted her....now she yearned for a boring, good natured guy.....
time heals all wounds .... what kind of crappy nonsense ...... his last thought... .. before he jumped.....
he left her behind.....speechless.....he has taken her money.....her car......her self respect....even her tongue....she would never be able to moan the whole day....
little poem
her body is sore,
pain is her silent companion,
her lover and inspiration,
and she reaches for the knife,
to protect herself from being alone
pain is her silent companion,
her lover and inspiration,
and she reaches for the knife,
to protect herself from being alone
good thoughts -bad thoughts
Hot water touches her skin
Sadness evaporates
Tiredness trickles down the drain
Desire for life arises
Hot water touches her skin
Mixed up with her tears
And blood
That trickles down the drain
From her open veins
Sadness evaporates
Tiredness trickles down the drain
Desire for life arises
Hot water touches her skin
Mixed up with her tears
And blood
That trickles down the drain
From her open veins
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